| | It has been a very long time since I wrote here. Since my absence, a lot has happened. Here's the low down:
- I am engaged to a beautiful, wonderful girl named Heidi. We are to be married in June.
- Graduation is approaching very quickly. I am feeling the strain of school as I struggle to keep my internal peace and complete everything needed for my diploma.
- Around the New Year, I made a choice to pursue an internship in Memphis, TN with Campus Crusade for Christ as a staff intern working on different college campuses. Heidi wanted to join with me as well.
However, as of recently, we have both been having doubts about going. Heidi has especially been having great feelings of doubt, even saying that she doesn't want to go any longer. This leaves me very confused. We have been planning for the past three months around our moving to Memphis... and now it seems that dream is dying. And that confuses, frustrates and leave me wondering, "What now?"
Are we destined to do one particular thing? Or do we have the free will to decide what to do with our lives? I don't want to make a decision to join the ministry because I had better feelings about it earlier, but I don't want to not pursue it because Heidi and I are afraid.
But are we ready?
I haven't got the answers, but I know who does. Still, I worry. I want to be a part of this great commission. I want to do something spectacular... not spend my life behind a desk or selling consumer goods.
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| | Posted 3/28/2008 12:59 PM - 28 Views - 2 eProps - 2 comments
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